Journal Entry for 7 July 2014 Some talk of dreams.

College errands. Yep. I said it. Today was the day I realized I hadn't registered for Fall classes yet. Which means it was another day of me sitting down trying to figure out which class will fit into my day where and how much time that will give me between classes and the like. Surprisingly, I was stressed. Why? I don't even know. It seemed easy enough, I just don't think I was liking the idea of how crammed my schedule was about to become. The difference also being that I will be attending classes in a seated sitting during the Fall instead of online classes. Schedules can be my worst nightmare because in the past I would arrive really early to events, work, etc, and it just got old. Some have said that's great you're always early!!! To which my response was, I'm here because I'm always worried about being late and the consequences. Let's just say that is not a desirable way to live. Now I will see if that is how I respond this time around to schedules.

So much of my day outside of college work revolves around the subject of metaphysics. I often feel that I should discuss it in this blog since I'm blogging in journal-ish form. Instead of diving into the deep end of it all, I think I will wade into the shallow end of talking about dreams, since I have found other times to talk about dreams in my school work. I write my dreams down and value my dreams. I believe that dreams are often a set of images that relay a message from the subconscious mind, trying to point out something I need to put my attention on during the day. So far, within the last (almost) year of doing this, most of my dreams have been interpreted accurately. The last few nights I had a dream of hills. The first night I walked into a hill at the base of it. The next night I saw the top of a hill cut off and removed so that I could stare down inside of it and I could see the contents which were rock, metals, even trees!!! Then once again I dreamed of this happening last night as well. This time, a teacher-like figure that I know was pointing out to me the contents of the hill once again. Teachers and authority figures, for me, have represented the super-conscious mind. I pay close attention to the dream meaning when I have such a symbol. So, at first I wasn't paying as much attention to the hills and their contents in the dreams, as there was a lot of other dream content that is not listed here. I was occupied with the meaning of all the other symbols and overlooking the hills. Hills and mountains have represented a challenge or obstacle, something to overcome. So, now that in the dream I am seeing the inside of the hill and what it contains, I realized that during my waking life I am seeing the contents of some obstacle or challenge. Though I am not paying attention to it. So after having the dream imagery three times and one with a super-conscious symbol even, I realized, I better pay attention to what is the obstacle in my life because even though I'm not giving it my attention, I see clearly what the underlying parts and challenges are and should be able to overcome this challenge quite easily. I love interpreting dreams.

Journal Entry for 6 July 2014

Today I experienced the coming together of many understandings. I couldn't help but laugh and smile as the pieces from several lessons and discussions snow balled into a clear image of what the information meant. The understandings are of a mental disciplined nature and would take quite a long blog post to explain each and every importance and it's locating in the line of reasoning. For the last few days I have experienced moments like this where the understandings revealed themselves from beneath the piles of daily thoughts. The realization today left me smiling and laughing in near disbelief that is was making sense to me as I drove through town. I chuckled as I thought over what was possible in mind with the combination of memory, imagination and concentration. The amount of understandings that are becoming solidified has even been showing up in my dreams. Which I have found extremely exciting as a form of confirmation. My experience with dreaming and interpreting dreams has been that dreams tell me a message of where my consciousness has been the days prior, so when they are filled with situations discussing and experiencing what I'm beginning to clearly understand, that is quite a fulfilling dream. I was able to sit for a few hours today and discuss my understandings with my teacher and a classmate, which turned out even better than could be expected. It's great when you can have someone to talk to and reflect your thoughts upon. Also on a positive note, I enjoyed a brownie today. A small one. A very small one. Still, I had a brownie.

Journal Entry for 5 July 2014

I experienced quite the let down today as I attempted to cut grass at the school. The grass is in dire need of a trim. Half way through the process the mower stops working. Bummer. I move it to the garage and tinker with it but I was unable to come to a conclusion. At this moment my teacher come out to greet me and tells me he and some others are going to a lecture on essential oils. I decided.to take a break and goto the lecture; I would have some maintenance performed on the mower later. I ended up having such a wonderful time and it was quite the learning experience. I was happy the mower stopped when it did, otherwise I may not have gone to the lecture and learned all that I did.

Journal Entry for 4 July 2014

The day of festivities to celebrate our Independence Day is here! The kids have already been outside shooting off their fireworks. Bottle rockets and smoke bombs until the sun begins to set. Now they're taking a break while I continue at the homework grind. It's possible that I attend too many schools of study.

Today I managed to work in a moment to brush my cat. The poor guy really needed to be brushed. Summer heat is catching up with his long poofy hair. The little guy is so furry I think I brushed enough hair to cover another cat. Maybe I could get into the cat toupee business. He could be quite the contributor.

I sat today pondering how to make Dream Journals as a crafting experience for the next up and coming Dream Catcher's meetup group. I kept coming up with ideas that I was not satisfied with until I stumbled upon some brown craft foam in my garage. Twelve by eighteen inches folder in half.... just might work I thought. So I brought it inside and laid out the template, folding, positioning paper and thinking further how I would combine it all. Five minutes later I'm texting my co-coordinator the idea and process. A reply of "neato" was one of the clearest confirmations of an idea of mine I think I've had from her.

I still stare over the list of books I desire to read through the summer days. Each one related to a form of theosophy, philosophy and the like. I'm not sure when I last read a book of fiction. The moments of day dream that I work int periodically have filled the spaces normally allotted for stories of the sort. I laugh that I might be able to finish one book by the end of the summer. Maybe. At least I can work on collecting for that library I hope to have one day. That is a wonderful thought.

Journal Entry for 3 July 2014

Today I took my kids to pick out some fireworks to celebrate Independence Day. In our small town I found three tents near by each other all competing for business. It does seem that the price goes up each year, but that seems like a subject of economics and federal reserve shenanigans, which isn't too interesting of a subject at the moment.

I bought them a lot of the usual fun but not so pretty fireworks to play with through out the day. What would it be without the snappers that go pow when thrown on the ground? I did pass up the confetti poppers that I usually enjoy. Then we shopped out the pretty, flashy, light up things. Sparklers and dancing blossoms. My son is getting older, and I decided this year would be an okay year for bottle rockets. Though I stared at them longer trying to say yes or no within my own mind. I spotted many colorful fireworks that would be fun for the celebration of this phenomenal country (though I couldn't find the elusive free health care firecracker...I'm pretty sure that is one of those fireworks that are only shot off in a few other countries). Smoke bombs, flying disks, little sparkler tanks and even a egg laying hen thingy. They walked away with quite a bag full of celebratory items, smiling and talking the whole way with excitement. Now the wait until they came ignite the fun seems to test their little waiting abilities until tomorrow. Now my hope is that this year I don't have a sparkler get flashed in my face as I help them light them. I love my eye brows.

Journal Entry for 2 July 2014

Wow, I love books. I cannot seem to find enough time to read as many books through out the day as I desire. I am lucky some days to work in a chapter of a desired book, but I will take what I can get. I read through a number of books today on metaphysical topics ranging from spirituality and meditation techniques. These are usually very interesting subjects for me and I could easily find myself talking about these topics to a like minded friend or stranger alike. I sometimes imagine that one day I will have my own massive personal library filled with various books from one subject to the next. It will be so grand that I will have to implement my very own inventory and order system, to ease the task of locating a specific book. This day dream is why I love libraries as well as book stores. I am reminded of some great book sales and I found once at a library that was clearing out some space for new books. Sometimes those are the best! There was no advancement today towards getting such a library of my own, but there was some fun of reading a good two chapters and arranging some school lessons into their own book. I have been keeping my lessons from the metaphysical studies school in document protectors. This was great for protecting them, however, I was unable to read through the lessons without removing them from the protectors. Some of the lessons have been worn a bit from carrying them around in my coat pockets in the past and I haven't wanted to wear them out further. So today I went to the store and bought 120 document protector sleeves and sat patiently removing staples and sliding each page into their own sleeve. It was one fat binder by time I was finished. It took me longer than expected but the feeling when I was finished and could flip through each page was wonderful and worth it. Now, back to day dreaming about that library of my own.

Journal Entry for 1 July 2014

There are days when it seems the ego shatters and I sit looking for direction. These times tend to be the beginning of something new for me, but the first days are always a bit without direction. I sit through the routine of what should be done for each discipline, looking for where my ego will awaken to it's next stimulus. So for now I will continue in routine, looking for the next direction.